Faith

There are so many things I want from this world. And so many things I need.

One of the things I need is faith. In me.
From my friends.
From my family.
From me.

How am I supposed to have faith in myself if my own family doesn't have faith in me?
My own brother.
Yes I'm talking to you.

If you can't handle the darkness I express on my blog, stop reading it. Simple as that.

If you don't want me killing myself on your time, fine.
But maybe try to be the one to stop me from doing that.
Because hearing that you believe I will makes me want to even more.

If you dare take this out on our dad I swear to god I will lose it. He's done nothing wrong, all he had to do was tell me you didn't want me to stay with you this summer without someone else there and I knew it all.

I'm going to college in New York. And no, I don't plan on bringing my mother to babysit me.

I
will
be
alone.

And you have to have faith in me. YOU of all people should have faith in me.

Do not pretend like you understand how I am feeling because you read this blog. We have barely talked since I saw you last. This blog is for me. I don't care if you read it but I do care if you assume you know everything because of it.

Call me when you read this. Because you have a lot of explaining to do.

I have every right in the world to feel this way. But you don't.

And if you don't want me there then fine, but just know that I am determined to stay there this summer by myself. I'll do whatever I need to.

-Little sister