Pain

I thought our first time was special...
Right now I don't feel like it was.
You took it too far, Flyer.
If the roles were switched, I would have never in a million years done that to you.
I especially wasn't going to do that to you 13 times.
13 fucking times.
I did it once.
And we weren't even together.
And it wasn't meant to hurt you.
It had nothing to do with you.

What you did had everything in the world to do with me.
You wanted to hurt me.
So much, that you did it 13 times.
You just took it too far.

This puts a whole new light on everything.
I would rather you be a horny teenage boy who couldn't keep it in his pants.
I could deal with that.
But it wasn't that at all.
This had intention.
This had a reason.
You actually thought of me while you were doing it and then decided that, because of me, it was okay.

Newsflash.
It's not okay.
Revenge is not okay.
Especially when I was and maybe always will be so vulnerable.

Next time you get that mad at me--
so mad that you're willing to get revenge 13 times--
unwarranted, cruel revenge--
save me the pain, and just break up with me. 

-Beaskie

Blind

You don't see it
You're blind to it
The sacrifices
The lies I have to tell
Just to talk to you.

You don't see it
You can't see it
What I give up
The stories I feed my friends
Just to see you.

You don't see it
You won't see it
The agony I am in
The pain I feel
Just because I'm not with you.

You don't see it
You're blind to it
The feelings I have
The way you make me feel
Just by you being you.

Doesn't matter.

You have to say what you feel. Or sooner or later your anger will build up and then it'll turn into a huge mess. I know your intentions, I know it's not like you don't want me to live my life. Just say what you feel and explain it the best you can, or else we will have a bigger problem on our hands.