Pain

I thought our first time was special...
Right now I don't feel like it was.
You took it too far, Flyer.
If the roles were switched, I would have never in a million years done that to you.
I especially wasn't going to do that to you 13 times.
13 fucking times.
I did it once.
And we weren't even together.
And it wasn't meant to hurt you.
It had nothing to do with you.

What you did had everything in the world to do with me.
You wanted to hurt me.
So much, that you did it 13 times.
You just took it too far.

This puts a whole new light on everything.
I would rather you be a horny teenage boy who couldn't keep it in his pants.
I could deal with that.
But it wasn't that at all.
This had intention.
This had a reason.
You actually thought of me while you were doing it and then decided that, because of me, it was okay.

Newsflash.
It's not okay.
Revenge is not okay.
Especially when I was and maybe always will be so vulnerable.

Next time you get that mad at me--
so mad that you're willing to get revenge 13 times--
unwarranted, cruel revenge--
save me the pain, and just break up with me. 

-Beaskie