Reminiscing used to be one of my favorite things to do. Now it's the most painful thing I could do, yet I do it anyways. 

Do you have the journal? Remember our first time? Mammoth? Remember trips to the beach and Disneyland? Seeing movies late at night and going to get Indian food? Laughing uncontrollably and making love endlessly? None of that is altered by what happened yesterday. All of that is still very much valid and relevant. And it's what we could be again, if you'd just hear me out. I'm deeply sorry Flyer. I'll say it for the rest of my life. For everything. I freaked out. I reacted horribly. That doesn't mean I'm a horrible person. That doesn't mean we ever ever had a relationship that was anywhere near unhealthy, or even just bad. All it means is that while I've healed a lot, I'm not done yet. That's not a reason to end us, especially not like this. None of this is fair to either of us. We are incredible together. 

We deserve each other. 

-Beaskie