A Big Part Of Me

I feel like I'm going crazy.

It's making me obsessed. I can't get it out of my head.

The worst part is I can't decide if I want to know when it happens or not. If I decide I don't want to know I'll always be curious, but if I decide I do want to know then I'll regret it the second I find out.

A very big part of me wants us to stop until you and her are figured out. I feel like I'm becoming part of this situation and I'm not--this is strictly between you and her, I have nothing to do with it. Being with you with it on my mind is hard, but would being without you make it any easier? I hate being without you. I love you. But could that be easier for us both?

I don't know. Like I said, a big part of me wants to find out.

What do you think?

-Beaskie