So close....

I was so fucking close.

I was 

SO

FUCKING

CLOSE!!!!!!!

Now what? I have a boyfriend who I can barely talk to, a best friend who is disappointed in me, and all I'm wishing is to be dead again. I'm wishing I was back in the hole, because there I don't feel anything. I don't give a shit if my life is falling apart. 

But I got out of that hole, so now I give a shit.

A whole lot of good that's done me.

I WAS SO FUCKING CLOSE! 

THIS IS NOT FAIR!

I CAN'T HAVE THIS AGAIN! I WON'T!

You know what. No. I can't do this.

-Beaskie