Explosion

My eyes are dry now. They ran out of tears.
Everything feels backwards. This is not what I'm used to. I want to talk to you about this, but I can't and I won't.
No, I don't want to. It's too painful.
My ground is suddenly unstable, and I can't stop my head from spinning. I never saw this coming.
The pain has lasted since it happened...and it's been quite a while. I kept that pain in because I knew you were feeling it too, and I didn't want to add to it. I did what you do--I held it all in until I couldn't take it anymore and it finally exploded. Only it exploded inside of me, so now my insides are covered with the painful residue of the explosion. I'm tainted with it.

I hate her.

-Beaskie