Terrified

Losing you terrifies me. But so does staying with you. 

Realistically, we might not be physically together for over ten years. 

That means we shouldn't be together. 

I'm tired of being alone. Of being lonely. I need people. I need someone. I need love. 

Here. With me. Now. 

I can no longer be in love with the idea of love. I need it to be real, and alive, and current, and present. 

I also need you to care more than you do. It doesn't seem like these feelings of mine worry you at all. 

Have you been wanting this? Do you want this? Want us? Want me?

I want us. I need us. But I don't know if I can have us. 

-Beaskie